*My Kids*

OH how I love my job, however today was such an emotional and great day at work that I realize how worth my job truly is. I work for and after school club and work with third graders. I have this kid who is the toughest kid I know, he's a bully and mean to the other kids at times but I know he means well he's got the biggest heart when he's not being rude to others and he only trusts me and a few other of the teachers there...well today he got in trouble by one of the other teachers and he had to fill out an improvement plan where there parents have to sign it...and he was so mad and came to me and was saying how he wish he could die before taking this home, and i go no its ok...and he just broke down crying i mean just fear and dread in his eyes and crying but he was trying to hide it and it pained me he looked at me with tears down his face and said "please Miss Jamie don't make me take this home I will be in SO much trouble," i took that stupid improvement plan and threw it away and told him we'll figure out something else for a consequence...and I went in the bathroom and cried a bit...those kids have such a rough life it sickens me and breaks my heart.
This boy today who I thought didn't like me wrote me a letter it was so sweet and he is such an amazing kid I love him and it made me feel so good. Three of my girls today who are just so accident prone came up to me and nestled up to me and the other two just cuddled up to me also…it was the sweetest thing. Someone said we looked just like a picture.
These kids melt my heart and I’m way too attached to them but I can’t help it! They all have something so special inside of them and it breaks my heart to see the type of homes they are in and the type of environment they are being brought up in. I know they will have such a hard life and it makes me so heartbroken…I can only pray and hope that they will do and be ok in life and that I am making a difference right now. I love my job so much and wouldn’t trade it for the world! I love my kids.